Started my Friday with the nuggets game with my friends. We came to the game to support a friend who performed the national anthem. Nuggets got crushed but it was a good time.

Saturday by far my busiest day of the weekend. Started with an audition for a play.

I was so nervous for the audition but after practicing it hard for hours. I felt I had it memorized. When it came to perform the audition, I couldn’t get past 6-8 lines. It was an epic fail I felt terrible but I’ve never done anything like this before I’m glad I at least showed up and tried even if it went terribly. It felt really bad that I worked so hard only to put out a terrible performance when it mattered. I have tried not to beat myself up too much but I was crying after I left that place. Also I still cringe and may always when I think about my audition. Had to lie to my friends from the nuggets game when I was asked about it by them., was too ashamed to tell them the truth.

Later post audition I played tennis against one of the best tennis players I’ve faced. Despite that he had by far the strongest serve I’ve ever faced it was a close game. We only played one game but he did beat me 8-7.

Later I went out to a party. I don’t have any photos of it but it was a really good party. Unfortunately I invited a work friend who actually showed up but he was counting on me to let him in but I didn’t feel his 6 calls and missed him. I felt terrible when I saw his 6 missed calls but I saw him today in the context of work and he seemed okay with it. I really value our friendship and hope I can make it up to him next time we hang out. I know I wouldn’t have been as calm about it as he was. This was a really nice party and I meet a lot of people which was nice. I do think I stayed longer than I should’ve and also I think some people there really didn’t like me. People’s opinion is me is the opinion I care the least about when they don’t like me, but there was some people who annoyed me a bit I can’t lie. Wish I had seen my friend there I think I would’ve had more fun. Also by no fault of my own my job became a big topic of conversation. I do not want to get into it but two women who i was very kind two played a prank on me by sticking something on the back of my shirt, can’t prove it was them but something tells me it was. Childish, and I was upset that no one told me even though I’m sure many if not everybody knew and saw it. I didn’t notice it until I got home but I was mad when I did.

Got home from the party at about 2am knowing that I’d have to be up at 5am if I was to go skiing which I really didn’t have a choice as I wanted to pick up my skis, boots, and binding that I purchased the previous week and give them a test run. So despite the lack of sleep I made it. I usually go from 6-3:40 but this time I left at 2:40 instead to save myself an extra hour and hopefully get some more sleep when I get home. I did sleep both ways on the bus for at least an hour. Had a good day but did less skiing than normal even with the earlier departure. Had lunch at vendettas as usual, love that place. When I got home I made a quick dinner and went to sleep for 12 hours 6pm-6am which I think was necessary as it gave me a cumulative 14hrs of sleep for Saturday and Sunday combined and woke up feeling okay, as far as energy is concerned.

This was a very busy and fun weekend that was also a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. I was so sad about how the audition went, but by the time I played tennis I was feeling more like my self again. By the time I was at the party it was a thing I wasn’t really thinking about and actually spoke to some strangers about. It’s funny how it can be easier to open up to a stranger you’ll never see again than a friend. It feels bad still but time does heal all wounds. Enjoy this video of me crushing it on my favorite run in vail.