But the truth is I only did it as on oath to god for lent, I can’t tell you how close I was to resetting yesterday. I still have a lot of weed and paraphernalia. I won’t feel good until I get rid of these. I don’t think I have the strength to just throw them away but I know if I do it will be a huge step to my continued sobriety. I don’t know if i can make it another 45 days but I will certainly try. I wish I could just smoke sometimes but I know I can never maintain a healthy relationship with marijuana.